I keep reading and hearing about the big $400 million lottery jackpot. I thought for a minute about what I’d do if I won (unlikely, since I didn’t buy a ticket) and I was surprised by what came to mind.
I used to dream about winning. I figured I’d quit my job, buy a house, travel with friends, get a couple of dogs, and support charities. Those were the first things that came to mind. Those are all still on my mind, but now something else comes to me first: doing all the health stuff I feel I can’t afford to do right now.
Money doesn’t solve everything, but it sure could help! I wrote about this 2 years ago but life was so different then. And back then, I didn’t know what was causing my health problems. If I had that money now, I’d immediate see the doctors who don’t take insurance, run all the lab tests that the insurance companies don’t want to cover but that I know I need, and take the extra supplements I’ve been avoiding. That’s already thousands of dollars every year. Then I’d go back to physical therapy and start getting therapeutic massage every week. I would pay to see a doctor for a medical marijuana prescription and buy a high-end vaporizer to help with the chronic pain. I would get a dog, which would do wonders for my emotional health (and I could then afford a dog walker for the days I needed someone, which would be most days.) I could get a home with central air conditioning so I wouldn’t feel as horrible all summer long. Of course, I wouldn’t have the stress of worrying about my future finances, and that would really help with my cortisol levels. I would update both my eyeglasses and my orthodics more often. And of course there’d be things like buying only organic produce.
This flashed before my eyes in an instant, and then it was gone. I didn’t win the lottery. I need to save the money I have in case my benefits are pulled away, which could easily happen any time. And I don’t have enough money to make all of that happen anyway.
It’s sad but true: good health costs money. I’m lucky to be doing as well as I am, to be honest. I’m thankful for a safe home, good health insurance, and a supportive family. But $400 million might not be so bad to add to that.