I’ve been trying to convince myself that, if need be, I could do some part time work. It wouldn’t be much, but maybe a few hours every day. It would be something I could do from home, something computer-based. And then I got a reality check.
The other day I started a new blog. I’d been thinking about it for a while and I finally took the leap. This blog is about 2 years old and I’d forgotten just how long it took to set this up. Also, I was in much better health when I set this up. Hell, I was even working full time!
I set aside lot of time and I got to work. I signed up a domain name, and got the basic site set up. I created an email account to use for the work associated with the site. I signed up for a Twitter account related to the blog. Every time I signed up for something new, I had to confirm it through email. I had to make sure it all connected. I spent some time finding just the right look for the blog. I chose an avatar to associate with the blog account, the email account, and the Twitter account. I wrote the “About” page. I really wanted to write my first post, but I just didn’t have the energy.
In the end, I spent more than 3 hours working on my new blog. I got it all set up and ready for my first post. Well, it was mostly ready. There are some security things I still need to do and some other small items to take care of. But it’s mostly done. And by the time I got to that point, after 3 hours of work on the computer, I was mentally and physically exhausted. I was worn out. I was in pain. I’d had it. All I wanted to do was lie down. My eyes hurt, so I figured it would be good to read a book for a bit. I only read 2 pages. I was too tired to read.
So I learned a lesson. As much as I want to think otherwise, I’m not ready for a job, even a part time one. Sure, I spend lots of time on the computer now, but it’s broken up into small bits and it’s mostly reading. Being more actively engaged and sitting for so long was just too much. I’m not ready.