You’re probably wondering about that title. Shouldn’t I be upset that I was denied SSDI? I should be, but I’m not.
I’ll admit, I teeny tiny part of me was hoping that I’d be approved for SSDI on the first application, and that teeny tiny part of me is a little bit disappointed. It would have made things immeasurably easier, no doubt about it. But I also know that a ton of people get denied the first time around. I read the denial rate was 80%. I don’t know if that’s accurate, but more than 80% of the people I know have been denied the first time they applied, so I was assuming I would be too. What I didn’t expect at all was that it would happen so quickly! I applied for SSDI less than 2 months ago. At the time, the web confirmation told me to expect a response within 4 months, but I assumed that was wrong. I figured I wouldn’t hear anything for at least 6 months, maybe even a year. And I heard today!
So I’m saying this is good news, because now I get to appeal the decision this month, instead of having to wait until next spring. As soon as I speak with my lawyer I can start the next stage of this annoying, irritating, frustrating, exasperating process. The sooner I get approved, the easier my life will be. I am fortunate to be in a position where I can manage not having any income in the short term, but I’m not exactly wealthy, and not having an income in the long term could be a real problem. I don’t want to cringe tomorrow when I buy the large 24-pack of toilet paper, but I know I will. I don’t want to wear pants that are 2 sizes too big because I can’t justify even thrift store spending, but I do. I don’t want to depend on others to support me, but without SSDI I will have to. SSDI may not pay much (actually, it would be $3 more than my current rent each month!) but it’s still far better than nothing!
So starting tomorrow (or whenever my lawyer gets back to me) I can be proactive and work on appealing this damn thing! I’ll let you know what happens….