Exactly the same and completely different 5 years later

birthday-cake-1320359_1280Happy birthday to us! Last week was the 5 year anniversary of Chronic Rants. And when I look back, it’s hard to believe how much has changed and how much has stayed the same over the last 5 years.

I still have the same symptoms as I did then, it’s just the severity and frequency of various symptoms that has changed. I no longer work full time at an office, but I am trying hard to start a small online business that I can do part time from home. I still encounter all sorts of ableist bullshit, though it’s usually in different ways than before.

I suppose the biggest change is my perspective. 5 years ago I was struggling, but I assumed that I would continue working. I assumed my health would continue to slowly get worse. Little did I know that just a few short months later I would be leaving my job for a “temporary” break that would become permanent. I had no idea my health would get so much worse so fast.

But this blog has also helped to change my perspective. Writing about my illnesses has taught me a lot. Talking to you through emails and comments has taught me more.

I stand up for myself even more than I did before.

I am more aware of other illnesses, other medical systems, other cultures surrounding illness and disability.

There are many chronic illness blogs out there. I read a few before I started writing my own, and I have found many more over these last 5 years. The online communities are so important for all of us.

Now I wonder where I’ll be in another 5 years. Will I have finally found my fur baby? (I’m really hoping that will happen in the next year!) Where will I be living? How will my health be? Will I be able to travel again? Will I be working? Will I be on benefits? Which symptoms will be bothering me the most? Which will be worse? Which will be better? I have so many questions, and all I can do is work to push my life in the direction I want it to go and hope it goes at least a tiny bit according to plan.

Thanks for joining me on this awesome journey!

6 Responses to Exactly the same and completely different 5 years later

  1. Lorna says:

    Happy Five Year Anniversary!
    When I look back at the last five years my story is very similar to yours.

    • chronicrants says:

      Thanks Lorna! It’s good to hear from you! How have you been lately? Interesting that it’s such a similar story. I wonder how our next 5 years will go.

      • Lorna says:

        I have been much better physically, have been attending the pain clinic physio. However, sadly Sable my beautiful lab had an epileptic fit and died in my arms. I was distraught and very anxious.But feel a bit better now. Sable was cremated and her ashes returned to us for keeping. The vets were wonderful and caring and rang several times to see if I was ok.

      • chronicrants says:

        Oh Lorna, I’m so sorry about Sable! You were fortunate to have such a sweet, loving companion, and I hope that you can enjoy the many wonderful memories you created together. Even just seeing the photos you emailed me gave me a boost when I needed it. She was a very special pup.

  2. Karen J says:

    Congratulations on 5 years, CR!
    It’s hard to believe it’s been so long, Lady.
    Much writing, many changes, much learning, and “We’ve all survived!” as a friend said at Christmas!

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