Chronic Rants

I have left the house twice in the last four days.  Well, that’s if you don’t don’t a trip to the basement of my apartment building.  Trust me, that wasn’t so exciting.

As I said before, I haven’t been feeling right over the past few days.  I noticed it early, and I did the right thing by staying in the house and resting.  That seemed to work, so yesterday I went to the grocery store.  This was a small trip.  I drove my car, I parked close, and I know the store well, so I just got the things I needed and then left; I wasn’t wandering around.  Still, I knew immediately that it was too much.  I stayed in last night and watched a movie.  I didn’t exert myself, or even open up the computer to write.  Still, I woke up this morning feeling off again.

This happens sometimes.  The timing tends to be unpredictable, but at least the treatment is predictable.  Or at least, it was.  Every other time this has happened, by the third or fourth day (today) I would either be really sick or completely better.  I don’t know why it’s dragging on this time.  I guess it just goes to show that we can do our best to take care of ourselves, but even the predictable can surprise us.

I’m glad that I’m not working now, because it means that I didn’t try to go to work like I normally would.  Instead, I turned off my alarm and slept late, which definitely helped.  I cancelled my plans for today (and I had been looking forward to them!) and I rested.  I have no doubt that I’d be doing much worse if I was pushing myself.

The big question mark is tomorrow.  I’m not hosting Thanksgiving, but I am supposed to provide the only veggies on the table, so I hope I feel up to cooking them.  Besides, if I don’t cook, what will I do with the 4 pounds of brussels sprouts in my fridge?  As hard as it is, especially for a control freak like me, I know I just have to relax and rest tonight, and wait to see what tomorrow brings.  If I can do it, that’s great.  If not, so be it.  We all have our limits and these are mine.  How do you handle yours?

In the meantime, I’m getting really sick of watching tv.  And this is coming from a self-described couch potato.  I really need to get out of the house.  Hopefully soon…..

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Life is unpredictable.  I know that.  And to be honest, I tend to handle change fairly well.  Still, too much change at once is difficult.

Autoimmune diseases are tough to handle, but being able to predict certain things about the day can make a huge difference.  Knowing how active I’ll need to be, when and what I’ll eat, and when I’ll be able to rest all make it a whole lot easier.

While I’m not working, I’m making an effort to set plans in advance so that I have reasons to get out of the house and see people.  This is good for me.  I need and want to spend more time with family and friends.  But for some reason, three different people needed to reschedule our times this week, two others needed to set something up last-minute, and I heard from all of them today!  To them, this isn’t a big deal.  Move a lunch, change a date, switch things around…. easy, right?  But this is making me nervous.  It’s a lot to juggle.  I need to make sure I don’t do too many things on the same day, so I need to find a way to do everything and see everyone in a way that makes me happy and not too worn out.

I don’t know yet how I’ll work all of this out, but at least I know one thing for sure: my health comes first.  I’ll do my best to work out everything else, but I will make sure that I feel good at the end of the week.

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