Being sick and single

I love being alone when I’m sick.  

I can wear the same thing for way too long.  I don’t have to worry about brushing my teeth or my hair.  I can watch crappy tv shows and movies that I’d be embarrassed to watch in front of other people.

But then, I hate being alone when I’m sick.

I have no one to remind me to change my clothes or brush my teeth (today I forgot to brush until 4pm.)  I have no one to make me tea or make me food.  I have to wash dishes myself (or else run out of clean pots in which to make soup.)  I have no one to buy groceries or pick up medicine for me.  I have no one to sanity check me on my symptoms – should I go to the doctor, or does this seem more viral than bacterial?  I have no one to make sure I don’t do something stupid when I have a fever (about once every other year I get a high fever and get a bit delusional; when it’s 103 or 104 I try to do stupid things like drive, go to work, call business associates, or have sex (yep, a high fever makes me horny.))

Over all, I’d rather have someone with me when I’m sick.  I found myself sobbing today.  My temperature was only 2 degrees high, but that must have been enough of a fever to make me a mess, because otherwise I can’t imagine why I was crying.  It would have been nice to have someone around to reassure me.  My kitchen is pretty bare.  I was going to go food shopping, but then I got sick.  It would be nice to have someone buy food, cook it, and then wash the dishes.  (In the meantime, Chinese food delivery has been a godsend.)  I keep debating whether I should go to the doctor.  This started very suddenly (at 4pm on Monday I felt fine; by 4:30 I was sick.)  I keep wondering if it’s strep.  Most of all, it would be nice to have some company.  Being alone with a CI sucks, but being alone with a bug sucks too.  But on the bright side, at least I know this won’t last forever.

2 Responses to Being sick and single

  1. abcsofra says:

    Wishing you feel better thoughts. Delivery is the only way to go when one is alone and needs substance. Chinese soup is the best and hopefully it is helping you to recoup and quickly.

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