Sometimes we do things that are hard. Occasionally something is easy, but often it’s hard. Very hard. Damn hard. We do it to improve our health.
So why do we do these difficult things? Are we gluttons for punishment? Do we enjoy the challenge? Are we masochists?
Or are we people in pain?
Yeah, that’s what I thought. The last one, right? Me too.

And that’s why it pisses me off when someone hears that I’m eating a very restricted diet, or that I live with constant pain, or that buying groceries on a bad day is a huge effort, and their response is “Oh, I could never do that.”
At this point I figure they say this for one of two reasons (but please let me know if you think of another!):
- They don’t believe that my symptoms are as bad as I say they are.
- They can not possibly imagine how bad my symptoms are, because they have no frame of reference.
I want to believe that it is usually #2, that they just can’t imagine daily nausea that is so bad, you’re willing to cut your favorite foods out of your diet to be rid of it. But really…. who couldn’t imagine that? And if it’s #1, that just pisses me off to no end. After all, these aren’t strangers, these are friends and family who are saying this. They aren’t suggesting that it isn’t worth it for me to try these “drastic” measures of changing my diet or trying new supplements, but they say that they would never be able to do it. Maybe they’re trying to suggest that they’re too weak to try and therefore I’m strong? But in the context, that’s not how it sounds. It sounds like the pain could never be so bad that it would be worth giving up desserts on the off chance that it might help.
So for all of you doubters out there, have someone whack you as hard as they can in the knee a few times with a hammer. Now, would you rather have someone do that every hour, or would you rather give up chocolate forever?
Yeah, I thought so.
Posted by chronicrants 
application date was being set based on when I started that first application (and they only tell you that after you start!) but I saw no mention of the disability application, so I logically assumed I could just do it whenever I wanted. Obviously I knew it had to be done somewhat soon so that they could start processing my application, but a few days here or there wouldn’t matter, right?