When I was a kid, my family would drive to visit family several times a year. The car trip took forEVer… 4 whole hours! There was a decent amount of “Are we there yet?” coming from us kids in the back seat. The longer we were on the road, the more emphasis the “yet” received. We wanted to be there already!
I know everyone means well when they ask how I’m feeling, and when I’ll be ready to go back to work, but what I’m hearing is “Are you better yet?” I try to remind myself that they only want me to be healthy, but it’s weighing on me. Do they really thing I’d be better and return to work without telling them? Do my close family and friends think that I’d be doing great and not let them know? Asking constantly is simply not helping. It’s pressure. Every time they ask, and I tell them I’m not doing better, I feel like I’m letting them down. They are disappointed. I understand why they’re disappointed, but my natural instinct is to want to make them less disappointed, and I can’t do that, so then I feel guilty.
This is INSANE! I feel guilty because I have to tell people that my health isn’t improving?!?!?
Everyone is different. Some people may want to be asked about their health constantly. That works for them. It does not work for me. I am mentally crafting an email now that I can send to everyone asking them to back the hell off. I just need to figure out how to say it a bit gentler….
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