Almost every night it’s the same thing: I start to feel better as the hours pass. My body naturally does better in the evenings, and having some time at home (away from work) helps too. I start to feel better and even less tired, so I want to make good use of the time, I want to enjoy it, even by doing something simple like reading a book or watching a movie. So what’s the problem? The problem is that I still work in a 9-5 world, and that means waking up much earlier than my body would like. It means that if I go to bed at a “natural” time then I’ll feel horrible in the morning and through much of the next day. On the other hand, it’s hard to consciously choose to go to bed early when I’m finally enjoying my day (well, night.)
So now it’s not too late, and I’m feeling good. I want to stay awake and continue to feel good, but what I should really do is take a pill so that I’ll fall asleep in an hour. That means I’ll wake up feeling less bad. But is it worth giving up “good now” for “less bad” tomorrow? I just don’t know. I better hurry up and decide, though, if I’m going to take that little pill right now.
Chronic Rants 